I won’t take my pills anymore. This is my 28th day taking Fluoxetine.
I feel so free.
And at the same time…
I feel so… different
I don’t know what else could happen in my life but today I’m just happy.
I feel happy. I feel good. I just feel so good. Tomorrow will be a great day and I’m going to visit my dad’s tombstone on Sunday.
Sorry about the last post, I was doing my homework and I felt really tired for so many reasons.. I talked with some friends at school, we were talking about drugs. One girl on my class is addicted to cigarettes, she says drugs make her feel good and getting drunk feels really exciting and …well …whatever bitch. I’ll never try drugs.
Today is my 26th day taking Fluoxetine, I went to my terapy with my mom and my sister. We were talking about gender roles.
When I went back to my house I fell asleep for more than 3 hours. And I just woke up.
…Have you ever felt like you want to be inside your bed all day and forget about everything? have you ever felt like you want to stop thinking about how real life would be if you could have endless freedom and happiness? I do.
Everytime I hug the pillow on my bed, feel the cold blankets covering my body, take a deep breath and hear no sounds interrupting my thoughts… it’s like I’m on my dream world.
Today is my 25th day taking Fluoxetine. I found a girl on my school who’s taking pills too, that made me feel reliable because now I don’t feel like I’m the only one having these problems with emotions and such… anyways.
I went to see Kung Fu Panda 3D with my mom and my brother, it was funny and I laughed a lot with all the people at the cinema.
By the way, today I’m feeling really happy because I had good marks on all my math exams and today my mom bought me a cheese burger at McDonald’s at the end of the movie! Today I got an 18 on my math exam!!
I got unbanned from 4chan. I don’t know why but I’m a little happy now.
I only go there to share my feelings with people. Everytime I see motivational pictures I think about the person creating them and then I think about all the people seeing them and sharing the same feeling with me… sometimes, when you find people like you on the Internet sharing the same emotions with you, wherever you are, you can share those emotions with all the people there and you don’t feel alone anymore.
Some of those motivational pics are here in my blog. I wanted to share them with the people seeing my blog. I know there’s not a lot of people but I doesn’t matter, I know it’ll make one person smile.
Today is my 24th day taking Fluoxetine. That girl on my school, the one who used to be my friend for a lot of years, talked to me again. I can’t forget about her an our friendship, all the happy moments and all the thing we’ve done together and all those thoughts and feelings shared… I can’t forget about all the bad things she have done to me either.
I will be back to deviantArt soon and post more artworks but now I want to make a daily blog to talk about my life, serious stuff, usuk and yada yada yada…
Today is my 23th day taking Fluoxetine and I got banned from 4chan again but it doesn’t really matter right now.
I’m preparing to receive my confirmation, my second class was on Friday and a good friend of mine went to my house before class… she told a secret in front of the class. She felt crushed inside and started crying that day.
It’s the 4th time I see her crying in this year. This will be the 7th time I see her crying in my life.
She went for so much things on her life and I admire the way she is able to keep going with her face looking up at the sky no matter how many time it rains inside her soul.